He gives and Takes away

Im having such a stressful time at work.This intern is getting to much,My first and foremost goal now is school,get a tranfer to cambridge University,get my MBA and build my career as a business woman.
Today i had to make a very difficult decision about my life and i only hope it was the rite one,lord knows the decision i took was based on the word of God otherwise i would not have made it.
All things work together for the Good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose (romans 8 v28).I love that verse,infact i love the intire romans 8.I have to hold on to that verse no matter what.I have to believe with all my heart that everything will work out.
One of the most remarkable thing i have ever head in my life was what Job sad when he was down and out;"he gives and takes away"-blessed be the name of my lord even when the darkness closes in more my heart will always chose to say blessed be his name.

I dont like to share my life details but i need to say this.In my final year of high school something terrible happened,I lost my best friend of about 10 years.I was out of my mind.I never really understood jobs pain until that happened.I remember ho difficult it was for me to say those words "he gives and takes away". there was a song that i feel inlove with during that time of my life n=by the barlowgirls called never alone.anyway from all that i stil found refuge in God and i knew just like Job my redemeer Lives .

The church that Jesus Built

I excepted Jesus when I was about 9 years old,when i was confused and lost and had nowhere to go,I was raised in a christian family thou so i had heard about Jesus yet i didnt know this Jesus personally.One day while i was alone in the house I suddently Just came in contact with Jesus,i dont know what had Happened but i know i started Praying for hours,crying,dancing and singing.My saviour Had found me.Its hard to come in contact with Jesus and remain the same.

I began a very personal relationship with my father(GOD) ,It was awesome because even thou i could not see him i began to have this deep reassuring feeling that im not alone.The kind of feeling that makes you feel that all you need was Jesus and that he was the one you wanted to hear,like his presence was the very air you breath.
Now the church Jesus Built,Quite an amazing debate since the christian faith is made up of so may sectors,Being a born Again christian I figure the church Jesus built is the church of the bible,the bible is the word of God and if any church practises anything not found in the bible clearly it cannot be trusted.

Long Walk to the emancipation of our Minds

Im not the Political Type and truly speaking there is very little I can do to help Africa.I strongly Believe in Africanism to the core thou.I believe that we have the power within ourselves to be free from the shackles that bond us.
However the struggle for the emancipation of Africa from political issues,poverty,war and diseases seems to be getting worse,the big question is when will we finally succeed in our fight for complete liberation cause clearly the struggle still continues

I was not around in the times of Apartheid,I don’t know what its like to live an oppressed life,to be treated less than an animal,I don’t know what its like to have to carry a pass in your own motherland,to be told to your face how Inferior your are because of your colour.One thing I know thou is that alot of people fought really hard for me to finally be free in my own country,people like Oliver tambo and nelson Mandela.they went on to prove that truly nothing is impossible no matter how bad things may seem.
What made this people so powerful to me is their state of mind.They knew who they were fighting and they knew how to fight.
Today however we seem not to know who the enemy is and worse we don’t know how to fight,the reason why people continue to Die in our country today is because of ignorance.
Why ignorance? Well ill focus on a major issue at the moment which is HIV/AIDS.Millions of people around the world die every year because of this disease and Africa is one of the worst affected.
Since prevention is known to be better than cure you ask someone what must be done to stop the spread of this epidermic and one simple points to the government.I know there is something the government can do to help,and they have invested millions in the fight against HIV already yet people are still getting infected daily.clearly this is beyond the them
I switch my TV on to see an advertisement about a young girl living positively with HIV,she talks about her struggles and tells us that she still plans to continue living regardless.All this is heartbreaking.

While so much emphases is placed on HIV infected people I think that more should be placed on those not yet infected.Self empowerment and individual mental growth is the Key.People get continue to get affected purely because they have little knowledge.I think if we empower ourselves on a personal level our struggle against HIV will be won.
Lack of knowledge or simply ignorance is our enemy.All this are simply opinions

The Black Prayer So beautiful

This is deep, so take your time.

Why Did You Make Me Black Lord ....
Lord ... Why did you make me black?
Why did you make someone
the world would hold back??
Black is the color of dirty clothes,
of grimy hands and feet...
Black is the color of darkness,
of tired beaten streets...?

Why did you give me thick lips,
a broad nose and kinky hair?
Why did you create someone
who receives the hated stare?
Black is the color of the bruised eye
when someone gets hurt...
Black is the color of darkness,
black is the color of dirt.
Why is my bone structure so thick,
my hips and cheeks so high?
Why are my eyes brown,
and not the color of the sky?
Why do people think I'm useless?
How come I feel so used?
Why do people see my skin
and think I should be abused?
Lord, I just don't understand...
What is it about my skin?
Why is it some people want to hate me
and not know the person within?
Black is what people are "Labeled"
when others want to keep them away...
Black is the color of shadows cast...
Black is the end of the day.
Lord you know my own people mistreat me,
and you know this just ain't right...
They don't like my hair, they don't like my
skin, as they say I'm too dark or too light!
Lord, don't you think
it's time to make a change?
Why don't you redo creation
and make everyone the same?
God's Reply:
Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black?
I made you in the color of coal
from which beautiful diamonds are formed...
I made you in the color of oil,
the black gold which keeps people warm.
Your color is the same as the rich dark soil
that grows the food you need...
Your color is the same as the black stallion and
panther, Oh what majestic creatures indeed!
All colors of the heavenly rainbow
can be found throughout every nation...
When all these colors are blended,
you become my greatest creation!
Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool,
such a beautiful creature is he...
I am the shepherd who watches them,
I will ALWAYS watch over thee!
You are the color of the midnight sky,
I put star glitter in your eyes...
There's a beautiful smile hidden behind your pain...
That's why your cheeks are so high!
You are the color of dark clouds
from the hurricanes I create in September...
I made your lips so full and thick,
so when you kiss...they will remember!
Your stature is strong,
your bone structure thick to withstand the
burden of time...
The reflection you see in the mirror,
that image that looks back, that is MINE!
So get off your knees,
look in the mirror and tell me what you see?
I didn't make you in the image of darkness...
I made you in the image of ME!